owning a house, for mathew

honestly, i think i'd be cool renting
but the cash you can make from owning lured me again
so i bought a house, swinging at the first pitch
i had the market researched, it was a good deal
i knew the neighborhoods, it was one i liked

now that i'm here, reality comes with it
payments and upkeep
somehow doesn't jive with paddling and traveling
for seconds a day i still want out
but i did this to myself cause i needed to see

the house has plenty of rooms
a nice kitchen layout
two nice sitting rooms
and a great backyard that will fruit greatness
overall the property gets great light as well

but with 1907 comes creaks and sways
a water system that yearns to be new
a roof that would like a new hat
siding that's harmful to the lungs
and grounds that could take years to shape

all achievable, but where does one start?
where do you put finite money?
what projects are fun and which are just no good for me?

insurance says fix too many things,
i say goodbye to you.
the city says the double lot can't be split,
i call bullsh*t to your "push for density"
the war driven economy will turn,
the papers warn of worse areas for housing decreases
it puts minimal anxiety in my internal jet stream
cause i say those things are unknown
the only known is now

so i find a plumber from AA needing work
a carpenter that wants to take time to teach
hours of my own painting and cleaning
and creating something from my inside

a place to live, really to only make money
cause i'd be cool with a self composting toilet
and clean air blowing through trees
but i know this now
i'm not hesitant of it anymore
thanks to this house